Subash.M | Assistant Professor

Last week, I was on the same road, in the same bus, sitting by the same window. But I was not the same person. I remember staring outside, holding back tears, feeling heavy for no clear reason. Everything felt slow, dull, and stuck. Today, I took that same bus again. Same route, same crowd, same noise. But something had changed. This time, I found myself humming along with a random song playing on the speaker. I didn’t plan it. It just happened. And in that moment, I paused and wondered what really changed? Nothing outside. Only my mind. I realized something simple but powerful nothing will move forward if I keep sitting in sadness. Mourning doesn’t fix anything. Overthinking doesn’t heal anything. Life doesn’t stop and wait for me to feel better. It just moves. So I told myself let it happen. Let the thoughts come. Let them disturb. Let them pass. I don’t have to fight everything. I don’t have to explain myself to anyone. Not every feeling needs an audience. Not every pain needs sympa...

Yesterday evening is something I don’t think I can forget easily. I went to the hospital to see my mom after her operation. She had just come out of the OT and was moved to the observation ward. My dad called me, and she spoke to me over the phone. That voice… it didn’t feel like my Amma. It was weak, slow, almost like she was struggling to be herself. I didn’t know how to react. Later, when I reached the hospital and saw her, it hit me even harder. For a moment, I didn’t see my strong, caring mother I saw someone fragile, like a child. Her expressions, her tone, everything felt so innocent and different. And still, in that condition, the first thing she asked me was, “Saptayada?” For the past three weeks, no one had asked me that the way she does. I somehow controlled myself and said yes. Then she asked for water, and I gave it to her… like how we would give a child. That moment broke something inside me. That’s when it truly sank in money can’t buy everything. You can earn, achieve, ...