Today I Felt Free – A Moment with Keats in My Department
Today was like any other day in my department, classes, casual talks, and the usual movement of students and staff. But something felt different inside me. While I sat at my desk, waiting for the next hour, I came across Keats’ poem “When I Have Fears.” I’ve read it before, but today, it struck a little deeper.
The poem talks about fear the fear of dying too soon, before achieving dreams or experiencing love. For years, I carried the same fear. I often thought of my past, things I missed or messed up. Regret sat silently beside me like a shadow. I knew thinking about the past was killing my present, but I couldn’t stop it.
But not today.
Today, I didn’t feel regret. I looked around, smiled at the breeze from the open window, and realised, I am free. Truly free. Nothing is permanent, and permanent is nothing. Why should I let my past decide my today?
One of my colleagues mentioned an old memory involving me. Normally, I would’ve turned away, felt uncomfortable. But today, I just smiled. That’s not me anymore. I’ve let that version go.
I feel blessed now. Not because everything is perfect, but because I no longer hide from myself. Keats feared running out of time. I feared wasting mine. But now, I live each moment fully, with zero regret.
To anyone holding pain inside: you deserve to feel light. You deserve to feel free. Just start with today.
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